Woah.

I'm just shocked to see how much has changed around me

-January is ending.
-JAE has ended quite sometime ago
-My friends in PHS are either in sec4 or graduated.
-Dad is using Iphone although he is clueless about it's functions.
-My net has Multiplied from about 6 to nearly 12.
-Liverpool has gone from second to seventh in a season.

it's shocking to see the amount of changes in just about a month or so,
but importantly

~I admit there have been new people that come into my life, and there have
been some that left.

and the biggest change?

~Quite a bit of my cj friends are in relationships.



Well I admit
as a soon to be 18 guy
the idea of going to go into a relationship doesn't sound half bad
serious.

Besides,I am often a victim to loneliness,so it wouldn't be a bad idea for me.

I also wouldn't want to end up wondering if I find a wife and etc.

so it's only a question of why not.




As I thought of this, I thought to myself,

The Price of Salvation is indeed steep.
For Jesus to bring it to the world it required his life, his blood, his tears,
it required him to bear shame, rejection.

and for people who receive it

it required them to work their salvation with fear and trembling,
to be devoid of worldly pleasures, to be struggling against oneself to stay
pure to present a body pure as a pleasant offering.
To perserve in the face of persecution, hardships.

It might seem like the receiver had to pay a bigger price




but,





Jesus had nothing to gain for himself when he paid the price,
while we have something to gain.That is eternal life

and that's what made his sacrifice all the more greater.

I know how pricey this walk might be,
and how much I might have to pay eventually.
As a builder calculates the costs before building I am aware of the costs,
and I am prepared to pay it all.
Like him who paid it all on the cross. I want to honour him by paying whatever I can too.


I have already given up my passion.
I have chose to go another road to be able to serve more.
and if I have to lose more then I shall

If I might have to give up the girl that I really really like, I would.
(Though I feel I've lost her already.)
If I had to fall out with certain people, I would.
If I had to look strange/weird in front of my friends, I would.

I am. I will live a life abandoned for Jesus.
Just as he abandoned his life on the cross to save me.